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Today, I am pleased to announce that my very first paperback book is now available!!

He Saves My Tears is a women’s yearly devotional book with one easy-to-read chapter per week. Whether a gift to yourself or a loved one, it’s available in time to start 2023 off on the right foot! I have purposely kept the price-point low so that it will be affordable. My motive is not so much sales as it is to be a blessing to others.

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“I Love You…”

“I love the Lord, for he heard my voice; he heard my cry for mercy.” ~Psalm 116:1

On that day, I could tell our little toddler just wasn’t herself.

She was lethargic, feverish, crying, not eating, and grimacing in pain. In her 2.5-year-old vocabulary, I tried to figure out what was wrong. I did, however, notice that she kept rubbing her ears. Turns out, “Dr. Mom” was right – the doctor confirmed it was an ear infection.

As she was crying earlier, I carried her out to sit with me on the porch swing. She laid her little head on my shoulder. I could feel the fever radiating from her little body. We sat quietly and I prayed for her.

After arriving back home from the clinic, she seemed to perk up a bit more. My husband and I sat in her bedroom floor with her as she listened to her Precious Moments musical snow globe play the song, “Jesus Loves Me”. As the music chimed, she sat and looked curiously into the snow globe as the glitter swirled in all directions. It was as though she were reflecting upon the rough day she had; yet, thankful that we were with her through it all. Then, she said the sweetest thing…

She paused, gently laid her head on her Daddy’s knee, and so sweetly said, “I love you Daddy and Mama.” Needless to say, I had tears come to my eyes as her heartwarming words were so innocently spoken with gratefulness and sincerity.

And then, I thought…

Oh, how many times our Heavenly Father stays by our side through the rough days. I reflect on how selfless He is toward us. Not only did He sacrifice His only Son for us, but He keeps giving us more grace, more mercy, more forgiveness, more love, more guidance, more strength, more comfort, more help. As a true Father, He keeps giving of Himself to His beloved children.

And then, I wondered…

Of all that He does for us, out of His great love, how few of us take the time to truly reflect on this? We’ve been cared for by Him daily; shielded, never forsaken – yet, how seldom do we feel the full weight of His love for us, and our love for Him? Imagine the connection and mutual love felt when we pause, reflect, lay our head in our Father’s lap and say, “I love you, Father.” Oh, how easy it is to give a quick and mechanical, “I love you”, in passing… but do we really feel it? Do we mean it deep down or is it merely a nice gesture as we go about our lives, leaving God on the backburner? God inhabits the praises of His people.

As rewarding, heartwarming, and amazing it felt to hear the words, “I love you” out of my toddler’s mouth – imagine how altogether magnificent it is for God to hear those three simple words. “I love you” …


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I Need Help…

“I’ve never really been great at anything.”This untrue, self-inflicted, hurtful thought flashed across my mind after I failed to season dinner just right, once again. In that moment, I finally admitted it to myself, “I am not a great cook.” For a woman, there are certain unspoken ‘rites of passage’ to being considered successful as a wife and mom, by society; one of which is, being a good cook.

I failed.

Maybe such a trivial matter wouldn’t have hit me so hard if I didn’t already feel like a failure that day. You see, I was just a few months out of a prolonged, intense season of postpartum depression. This season began on the heels of another hurtful lie I told myself… “You’re not a good enough Mom.”

My bullying thoughts began a few months into Motherhood when my husband had to return to work after his ‘paternal maternity’ leave of absence. It was at this point I realized that I was not young enough, energetic enough, or healthy enough to care for our precious daughter by myself, around the clock. I knew I needed ‘all hands on deck’ to survive. I loved our little blessing so much and wanted to give her every ounce of myself. But, my health deficiencies had other plans.

I reasoned, “But, other Moms can do it all day, every day… Why can’t I? What is wrong with me?” The guilt of realizing I was not (and am not) the ‘Super Mom’ I aspired to be, ate me alive. Sure, we have a Mother-Daughter bond like no other and have made hundreds of happy memories together. But, I still need help.

By admitting we need help… is that such a detestable thing? Is it as bad as we make it out to be? Maybe we should humble ourselves to accept help when it comes.

Alas, the world praises self-sufficiency. Feminism says the wife can efficiently ‘dig ditches’ right alongside her husband and male counterparts. But scripture denotes that women are “the weaker vessel.” Not lesser in value… just weaker. Not shamefully inferior in God’s eyes… just created differently.

No matter the external facade, we are inherently delicate, made with moving emotions. We are nurturing, and created with certain instincts. Physically, we are not built as a male… but, that’s not abnormal or a negative thing. We each can thrive in our own ways. God knows our frame.

Yes, we can attain muscle mass and physical strength; even still, it is limited. Even in something as ordinary as opening a pickle jar, most realize our need for a strength we don’t possess. It’s okay to admit…”I need help.”

Now, in a far weightier matter than pickle jars and child-rearing, I once realized that I was severely deficient in my soul and needed help. This wasn’t a fleeting emotional breakdown… no, I knew it was true. I knew I was not a good enough person to avoid sin. I knew I was not able to do the right thing at all times. I am all human and need the heart- softening love which only a true Savior can give.

Still, my Savior has to calm my rowdy spirit, at times, and remind me to trust Him. I wrestle with doubts and fears. Try as I may, I simply cannot please God in my own strength, by my own willpower. Without Him, I am an utter failure at being righteous or always making the best choices. But, once I admitted…

“Lord, I need help. And I will always need your help…”

Then, help arrived!

It arrived in a glorious way which I shall never forget. The help I received felt far better than any of my feeble attempts at self-sufficiency. You see, this help was the soul-saving, eternal kind. It literally saved my soul from the fierce fires, as I dangled over the open mouth of hell. For all eternity, I will be grateful for His help. How could I ever forget His amazing, saving love?!

So, the next time I feel guilt-laden for asking for a helping hand when I am in need, maybe I need to remember this. Maybe I needn’t be so proud to somehow believe I can take on the whole world alone. All we can do is to try our best. But in those times we need what we don’t readily possess within ourselves, let us not be too proud to utter these words…

“I need help.”


Why Discernment is Essential

“Discernment is not knowing the difference between right and wrong.
It is knowing the difference between right and almost right.”
~Charles Spurgeon

Our world has recently undergone an enormous shift. Ever since the beginning of the COVID-19 pandemic, our way of living has been changed and/or threatened to be changed. We have heard the debates about vaccines, masks, and mandates. We have become familiar with phrases such as, “slow the spread”, “shelter in place”, and “essential workers”. Amidst clashing opinions, there is one absolute which we should remember, and that is this:

Discernment is essential!

It seems that deception is far more rampant than any pandemic ever could be. Scripture teaches the Believer to use discernment in many matters we face. We must be “wise as serpents, but harmless as doves” (Matt. 10:16). In this blog study, we will look at some of the top areas in which we must use discernment and wisdom. Don’t be deceived. Don’t be fooled.

Discern the Times

Amongst most Christians, there is a sense of urgency; a sense that our redemption is drawing ever so near. Because of this, many churches are sounding the warnings so that others are not caught unaware. Yet, there are those who do not notice we are in the final hour, because they lack discernment.

The Pulpit Commentary lists three signs which the people of that time (and our time) are not discerning. Namely, the low state of morality, the political situation, and the Heavenly warnings; all of which are quite evident now.

Scripture gives us the characteristics to look for, in people, when the last days are upon us (see 2nd Tim. 3:1-5, 2nd Peter 3:3-4). Likewise, we are also foretold of signs to look for (see Matt. 24, Mark 13:1-13, Joel 2:28-32, Dan. 9:27, Luke 21).

Some of the end time signs may not take place until after the church is caught away to meet the Lord. However, we are seeing many prophetic events which are currently being set up to be fulfilled and/or already fulfilled. Some events we now see are a foreshadow of worse evils to come. Although the ‘last days’ have been ongoing for a great many generations, it now seems that we are imminently close to the end of the last days.

Discern False Prophets

“Run from churches where you’re comfortable in your sins!”
~Carter Conlon

In times of turmoil, humankind has the tendency to look for a leader. The church looks to the Bible, Godly teachers and Pastors; while the world looks to its own. However, we are told that there will be many false prophets arise. Therefore, we must have discernment and a firm foundation based upon the truth of scripture, lest we be led astray.

In 1st John 4:1, we are taught to refrain from believing every spirit, but to “test the spirits” to see whether they are of God or whether they are a spirit of error. This is vitally important so that we are not deceived by those who claim there is peace and safety when there is no peace or safety (see 1st Thess. 5:3). It’s time to be spiritually awake and alert.

Dear Christian, be watchful for wolves in sheep’s clothing; those who disguise themselves as apostles of Christ. Don’t follow phonies who tickle your ears; only telling you what you want to hear. Don’t follow those who are greedy for gain, or those who have only a loose form of godliness; spineless and without strong convictions. Be alert, be vigilant, and be on guard against non-biblical shenanigans that are only for show. Run from those who are disqualified to preach (see Titus 1:6-9). Remember 2nd Corinthians 11:14-15 says, “… for even Satan disguises himself as an angel of light. So, it is no surprise if his servants, also, disguise themselves as servants of righteousness…”

Just as we are to avoid false prophets, we are also warned to reject false doctrines. In 1st Timothy 6:3-5, it states: “If anyone teaches another doctrine and disagrees with the sound words of our Lord Jesus Christ and with godly teaching, he is conceited and understands nothing. Instead, he has an unhealthy interest in controversies and semantics, out of which come envy, strife, abusive talk, evil suspicions, and constant friction between men of depraved mind who are devoid of the truth. These men regard godliness as a means of gain.”

Likewise, do not be deceived by false signs. Jesus warned, “For false christs and false prophets will rise and show great signs and wonders to deceive, if possible, even the elect. See, I have told you beforehand” (Matthew 24:24-25). If we are to discern false prophets, it is essential that we stay close to the Shepherd. We must have a robust knowledge of scripture written upon our hearts. We must never stray from what the Holy Bible teaches. Don’t be fooled by deceptive charismatic personalities, empty unbiblical promise-makers, and those who take scripture out of context, using weak human logic to slyly deny scriptural truths.

Discern False Narratives

“Be saved from this corrupt generation!” ~Acts 2:40

The Apostle Paul once said, “Don’t take me for a fool” (paraphrase, 2nd Cor. 11:16). That same sentiment should be said of those of us who are disciples of Christ. Jesus once told his disciples, “You are permitted to understand the secrets of the Kingdom of Heaven, but others are not…” (Matt. 13:11). We should be the most discerning of anybody and should be able to see through lies, deceit, coercion, and false narratives.

The Christian must discern between the fake and the genuine – in many areas. One such area is compassion, or lack thereof. We see a false compassion sweeping the world. Suddenly, the rich moguls, politicians, scientists, and media are all about love, acceptance, and inclusion – as long as it fits their narrative, of course. We see censorship running rampant – essentially, telling us what we should think or how we should behave. We see peer pressure and bullying to the highest degree; primarily amongst grown adults. Those who have convictions are called “bigots”, “narrow-minded”, “unloving”, “selfish”, etc. Yet, the bullies are the ones who dare not offend their own – going so far as to initiate an agenda of changing pronouns to describe the gender (or desired lack thereof) of person who is in sexual sin.     

The so-called, “powers that be” try to coerce and brainwash the masses. Sadly, they have been largely successful in this endeavor. However, God has a narrow way – and there are a few of us on this path. Jesus said, “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it” (Matt. 7:13-14).

We must be willing to stand alone. We must be willing to swim against the tide (Rom. 12:2). We must find our confidence in God – not in man’s approval. Jesus said that, yes, it will be difficult – but we are on the path to life. Anything of eternal value is worth striving for, come what may.

Discern For Your Body’s Sake

NOTE: In this section, we will be discussing Covid-19. Please bear in mind that I, the author of this blog, have the deepest compassion for anyone who has lost a loved one to Covid-19 and those whose health has deteriorated since surviving the virus. I also extend my deepest compassion to the families of those who have lost loved ones due to vaccine injury and those whose health has declined after being vaccinated. For these reasons, I wish to be sensitive to all groups in my approach on this matter. With that in mind, let us proceed.

Before the invention of the Covid-19 vaccine, there was already a great divide between those who vaccinate and those who do not. Generally speaking, those who choose to vaccinate feel that the vaccine(s) will provide health benefits for themselves and others. On the other hand, those who choose to refrain from vaccinating feel that the vaccine(s) ingredients carry more health risks than benefits – and some are instructed to refrain at the advice of their physician. Amongst the so-called, “Anti-Vaxxers”, many may also have a moral objection to how vaccines are studied and/or produced using the cells from aborted fetuses.   

The Wall Street Journal recently posted an article with the headlines, “White Evangelicals Resist Covid-19 Vaccine Most Among Religious Groups”. The article cited a study from the Public Religion Research Institute. The article went on to say that, “Evangelicals of all races make up about one-quarter of the U.S. population…” Many thoughts come to mind after reading such an article. First of all, it could be that the ‘race card’ is being played to pressure a certain people group into compliance. With race tensions (sadly) abounding, this could be a likely scenario. Secondly, if this article is accurate, it is concerning that only about one-quarter of the U.S. population are considered to be Christians. And thirdly, it could be that the reason(s) for such vaccine-hesitancy amongst evangelicals is due to a “gut feeling” that something just isn’t right with taking the vaccine(s). Perhaps, the “gut feeling” is one of human reasoning and logic; or, perhaps, it is one of something much deeper – a discernment coming from the Holy Spirit. These are all things we need to consider. After doing an exhaustive study on other vaccines (found HERE), there are many alarms to bear in mind.

In Pastor Keith Malcomson’s recent sermon, he stated: “Have you noticed in this hour, right across our world, that all the politicians and the doctors and the scientists – they say, ‘We care about your granny. That’s why we want you to get the vaccine. That’s why we want you to get it. That’s the reason – we care so much about you.’ I have never seen so many politicians care about us as much as in this hour… Do you know that there is going to come a religious leader, and he’s going to say, ‘I so care about your granny, and I so care about your children, that I want you to get this literal mark so you can buy and sell – because I care for you. And I want you to have healthy, rosy cheeks. But if you don’t take it, you’ll die.’ That’s how much they ‘care’ about you. I want to warn you, that people are saying they care so much about you in this hour – they [couldn’t] care less about you! Do you see the picture, here, of what we’re looking at?”

Pastor Malcomson felt that even though we have not yet seen the mark of the beast, that maybe, we are being conditioned for it. Could it be that the agenda of masks, mandates, and vaccines has little to do with health, compassion, or safety? Perhaps, it could be more about conditioning us to accept what is being fed to us, so that greater evils can be perpetrated without alarm? It seems that if health were the primary concern, then vitamins (with a proven record for improving health), likewise, should be mandated. It is important that we can see where this may lead us. Again – some things we need to ponder and pray about.

Discern, For Your Children

“I hope we seldom bow the knee without praying for our children.” ~Charles Spurgeon

If you are the parent or guardian of a school-aged child/children, then discernment is a must. God has entrusted us to care for them until they are of age. This generation of children faces challenges and pressures which many of us did not face. Evil is abounding more and more; making it crucial for us to instill God’s Word into their hearts.

While there are exceptions, the public school system is not always a safe place – especially nowadays. Not only are the “Sex Education” lessons being perverted with the LGBTQ+ agenda, but an undiscerning child can be easily led astray with various erroneous teachings and/or peer pressure.

Even in the “Bible Belt” of America, many teachers are gay or lesbian. While that has no bearing upon their ability to teach, it is cause for alarm to discerning, Christian parents. Why? Being exposed to hearing a woman refer to her “wife” and a man refer to his “husband” will condition an impressionable mind to accept sexual sin (see 1st Cor. 6:9) as the norm. Also, do we really want our tender children to spend hours a day taught by an individual who has any type of evil, sinful spirit within them?

The naysayers may chide, “But you cannot raise your child in a bubble!” Ah – but we can do our best to guard their young, growing spirits without throwing all caution to the wind. Proverbs 4:23 teaches us to “Guard your heart with all diligence, for from it flow springs of life.” Yes, we eventually let our children fly from the proverbial nest – but not before it’s a proper time. They need to be strong in their faith and convictions – or the evil world will eat them alive.   

Proverbs 1:8 admonishes, “Listen, my son, to your father’s instruction, and do not forsake the teaching of your mother.” If we are going to teach our children, we must know and practice the unadulterated truth, ourselves. We must also discern the times, discern when we face decisions, and discern how to best teach our children the ways of righteousness.

It’s a Spiritual Thing

Earlier in this blog, we discussed having a “gut feeling” when something just isn’t right. I wish to expound upon that a bit more. For, you see – discernment is a spiritual matter, not one that can be easily understood by the unconverted person or even with the logical mind. Once we are spiritually mature, we have had experience exercising our senses to discern both good and evil (Heb. 5:14).

Scripture teaches that many things are revealed to us (Christians) by the Holy Spirit – the Spirit of truth. We have a huge advantage over the sinner since we are able to receive such revelations. John 16:13 states: “He will guide you into all the truth. For He will not speak from Himself, but whatever He may hear, He will speak. And He will declare to you the things coming.” However, we are only privy to such wisdom by staying close to our Lord and by meditating on His Word. “And as for you, the anointing you received from Him remains in you, and you do not need anyone to teach you. But just as His true and genuine anointing teaches you about all things, so remain in Him as you have been taught” (1st John 2:27).

We can no longer plead ignorance. We must repent and receive the Spirit of truth. “So having overlooked the times of ignorance, God is now proclaiming to mankind that all people everywhere are to repent…” (Acts 17.30). It is of utmost importance to stay in faith. Scripture teaches us (in 1st Timothy 4:1-2) that in the latter times, some will fall away from the faith because they pay attention to deceitful spirits; they listen to liars. This is why it is important to discern what we hear.

However, it is impossible to have discernment without the Holy Spirit of God working in us. It is also a gift of the Spirit – to be able to discern spirits (1st Cor. 12:10). Remember, we do not have the same ignorant, lying, deceitful spirit which the world has. We, as Christians, have the Holy Spirit of truth. This is why we, oftentimes, clash when speaking with a person who is not a true Christian. Scripture even says that, “The natural man does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God. For they are foolishness to him, and he cannot understand them, because they are spiritually discerned” (1st Corinthians 2:14). Verses 15 and 16 go on to say this: “The spiritual man judges all things, but he himself is not subject to anyone’s judgment. For who has known the mind of the Lord, so as to instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ.”

Persecution for the Discerning

“None of you can be the people of God without provoking envy; and the better you are, the more you will be hated. The ripest fruit is most pecked by the birds…” ~Charles Spurgeon

When the wicked refuse to receive the truth we share, they rebuke us in the form of persecution. All persecution is hard. However, we find some persecution is a bit lighter – name-calling, slander, betrayal, or loss of ‘friendship’. Other forms of persecution are more severe – imprisonment, oppression, threats, injury, torture, or death. If we live for God, we will be persecuted. But we need not be afraid, for we are on the winning side. We must endure like a good soldier until the end; but we have the Holy Spirit to help us do so.

Jesus taught us to not fear those who can kill the body; but rather, to fear and reverence God, who is able to destroy both body and soul in hell (see Matthew 10:28). We needn’t fear the wicked, for everything they do in secret will be exposed in the open. God will judge. We will be vindicated.


“Your love to Christ will never dishonor you; it may bring some temporary slight from your friends, or slanders from your enemies; but live on, and you shall live down their [slander]; live on, and ye shall stand amongst the glorified, honored even by those who hissed at you.” ~Charles Spurgeon

No matter what obstacle we face, God will make a way for his own. Do not give up now… we are so close to the finish line! Even if we must limp in… oh child of God, let’s make it through Heaven’s gate!!

Be encouraged! Should we face a tough decision, God will give wisdom to us generously (James 1:5).

Be encouraged! Discernment from God will guard us and deliver us from evil (Proverbs 2:11-12).

Be encouraged! Those who endure until the end will be saved (Matthew 24:13).

Be encouraged! The God of peace will crush Satan under your feet (Romans 16:20).

Be encouraged! If lonely, remember, we are on the narrow path that leads to life (Matthew 7:14).

Be encouraged! Each day brings us closer to the day of redemption (Romans 13:11).

Never be afraid to stand up for truth, even if the whole world stands against you. Never bend on your scriptural stances and beliefs, no matter what society says. Please Christ, above all; for he is the only One who will matter in eternity.

There can be no compromise when it comes to the truth. Theologian, John Owens, put it like this: “Without absolutes revealed by God Himself, we are left rudderless in a sea of conflicting ideas about manners, justice and right and wrong, issuing from a multitude of self-opinionated thinkers.” God’s Word is the final authority… it is the standard of truth.

Furthermore, the beloved Pastor, A.W. Tozer, once said: “Great saints have always been dogmatic. We need to return to a gentle dogmatism that smiles while it stands stubborn and firm on the Word of God.” Do you have what it takes? In Luke 9:62, Jesus said that “No man, having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God.”

This is why we must discern that the world is eager to make us bow to their mindset; but no, we must resist. We must not bow to their sinful ways. We must not go against the Holy Spirit’s leading within us. “Think about the things of Heaven, not the things of earth. For you died to this life, and your real life is hidden with Christ in God” (Col. 3:2-3).

We must never give up on our faith in the eternal God due to temporary discomfort. If ever there was a time we need to discern, discern, discern – the time is now.

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When Christians Quarrel

“Avoiding strife is an honor for a person, but any fool will quarrel.” ~Proverbs 20:3

Allow me relay a true story, for example purposes…

Firstly, by way of a preface, I want to be clear that I do not wish to slander or give names in this example. I would never wish to bury a person so deep as to make them feel more like an enemy than a comrade. Also, we know that people can change, and later, see the error of their ways. Once again, this true story is used for example purposes only…

Many will know who I am speaking of by the description of this story; after all, the story is public knowledge that has been freely shared online. The story involves a Christian family who got involved in a family feud over money.

You see, the parents, their Daughter, and Son-in-Law were all part of the same reality TV show. According to the Daughter, her parents (namely, her Father), refused to pay her and her husband the funds which they felt they earned from the show. The Father gave his reasons for withholding payment, but the Daughter and Son-in-Law still didn’t agree. The younger couple sued the elder couple and won back the money in court.

After hearing this story, there are not many who take a neutral position. Some will be on the side of the parents, while others will be on the side of the Daughter. If we look at this court case as any fair juror should – we would not let our personal experiences influence our position. Yet, if a particular juror were to have had bad parents, it’s possible that they might allow themselves to side with the Daughter in revenge toward the parents – living vicariously through the Daughter; grasping for some sort of justice for themselves, also. If another juror had a ‘problem child’ with whom they were estranged, they might side with the parents in an effort to feel some slight rush of vindication and consolation for all they’d been through in their own life. However, it is important that both sides be heard with fairness.

I use this true story as an example for us all. How many times have we, perhaps, balked at an authority figure because of some past trauma with another authority figure? How many times have we, perhaps, treated the ‘underdog’ with disdain in order to make ourselves feel more powerful?

You see, it’s so hard for us to get ourselves off of our minds. The famous singer, Elvis Presley, sang a love song which said, “You were always on my mind”… however, so many could easily sing the song, looking at themselves in the mirror.

The Proper Christian Response

Can we (or do we) allow ourselves to be wronged in order to keep peace among fellow-Believers; committing it to God’s hands, instead?

Not often.

It’s a hard position to take in this dog-eat-dog world. Society teaches us to throw a childish fit when we do not get our way; after all, if it feels good – do it (they teach). Some of the same people shaking their heads in disgust at race riots, in like manner, take part in personal ‘riots’ of their own. They are gossiping, slanderous, unforgiving, and bitter grudge-holders who riot and rail against one another when they feel slighted. And yes, even some professing Christians take part in such behaviors.

Lest we forget amidst the overpowering voices of society, we must recall this biblical truth from 1st Corinthians 6:4-8: “So if you need to settle everyday matters, do you appoint as judges those of no standing in the church? I say this to your shame. Is there really no one among you wise enough to arbitrate between his brothers? Instead, one brother goes to law against another, and this in front of unbelievers! The very fact that you have lawsuits among you means that you are thoroughly defeated already. Why not rather be wronged? Why not rather be cheated? Instead, you yourselves cheat and do wrong, even against your own brothers!”

When it’s Hard to Forgive

Haven’t we, ourselves, been forgiven much? Yet, when it comes time for us to show forgiveness, grace, and mercy to another – we balk, we resist. Why? Because, we think the other fellow is ‘getting away’ with wronging us.

Rest assured, no one is ‘getting away’ with anything. Jesus said: “But I say to you that for every idle word men may speak, they will give account of it in the day of judgment. For by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned” (Matt. 12:36-37).

Scripture also states: “A hateful man disguises himself with his speech, but he lays up deceit in his heart. When he speaks graciously, do not believe him, for seven abominations fill his heart. Though his hatred is concealed by deception, his wickedness will be exposed in the assembly” (Proverbs 26:24-26).

And remember this scripture: “Beloved, do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, ‘Vengeance is Mine, I will repay,’ says the Lord” (Rom. 12:19).

While we know evil and misdeeds will be punished, let us also strive to live in peace. “Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no one will see the Lord: looking carefully lest anyone fall short of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up cause trouble, and by this many become defiled…” (Heb. 12:14-15).

Another reason why many are not so keen on forgiving is because they feel the offence toward them is too severe to forgive. In truth, the offence may have, indeed, been severe and deeply hurtful. Nonetheless, that does not mean that forgiveness isn’t required; even if no apology is ever offered. This is a hard truth for many of us to ‘swallow’, as it were. Remember, the narrow path that leads to life eternal isn’t always a comfortable one to travel. It can be full of crosses, losses, sorrows, and (what feels like) tremendous injustices. If it were an easy path, everyone would be on it; only a few will find this path and stay on it. Jesus said: “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it” (Matt. 7:13-14). As so aptly stated by A.W. Tozer, “It will take some courage at first, but the needed grace will come as we learn that we are sharing this new and easy yoke with the strong Son of God Himself.”

When I think of reasons why forgiveness is not freely offered by certain individuals, I think of this innate self-preservation mechanism most of us have. Some think if they refuse to forgive, it will keep them from being hurt again. However, let’s not fool ourselves… we are doing ourselves far more eternal harm by harboring unforgiveness. In Matthew 6, Jesus said, “For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.”  Forgiving someone does not mean that we condone their sin. Forgiving someone does not mean that we keep pushing ourselves on someone if they are not apt to restore the friendship/relationship. All we can do is strive to live at peace with all… as much as it lies within us. In Romans 12: 18, scripture teaches, “If it is possible, as much as depends on you, live peaceably with all men.” We can’t control another person’s response – and if the offender is dead, restoration is out of reach. Thus, scripture teaches us to do our part only… “as much as depends on you”.  If we’ve done all we can (according to Matthew 18:15-17) and the sinning Christian friend/relative refuses to hear us, we are taught to no longer regard them as a Christian. Wow! That is serious! This person stands in desperate need of prayer. There, oftentimes, is a rightful distance that will ensue upon this discovery. (Please note, the standard is a bit different for marriage relationships – see 1st Corinthians 7).

Certainly, there are numerous other reasons why people choose to harbor unforgiveness. However, a big reason for unforgiveness is simply because people have too high a view of themselves… this is part of our sinful, human nature. The Apostle Paul was given a ‘thorn in his flesh’ to keep him humbled so he wouldn’t become prideful in the ways that God was using his life. Likewise, the Bible teaches in Romans 12:3, for a person “not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly…”

Meekness Matters

Are we willing to admit when we are wrong? Can we meekly humble ourselves to ask for forgiveness from God and man? Or are we too prideful; too perfect? Even if a person was, indeed, the ‘innocent party’ to begin with – can they not soon become guilty by way of pride and grudge-holding? (Read that again). As the old saying goes, “Two wrongs don’t make a right.”  It’s not up to us to teach people a ‘lesson’ by slandering them, harming them, or giving them the proverbial cold shoulder treatment. God is the Teacher, and a very capable one, at that. We are to be the humble and meek students who follow God’s ways.  Remember, there are Godly ways to resolve conflict (see Matt. 18:15-17, 1st Tim. 5:1-2, etc.) – But, being obtuse, overbearing, and haughty is NOT the right way.

The beloved preacher, A.W. Tozer once said: “Let us examine our burden. It is altogether an interior one. It attacks the heart and the mind and reaches the body only from within. First, there is the burden of pride. The labor of self-love is a heavy one indeed. Think for yourself whether much of your sorrow has not arisen from someone speaking slightingly of you. As long as you set yourself up as a little god to which you must be loyal there will be those who will delight to offer affront to your idol. How then can you hope to have inward peace?”

Tozer continues, “The heart’s fierce effort to protect itself from every slight, to shield its touchy honor from the bad opinion of friend and enemy, will never let the mind have rest. Continue this fight through the years and the burden will become intolerable. Yet the sons of earth are carrying this burden continually, challenging every word spoken against them, cringing under every criticism, smarting under each fancied slight, tossing sleepless if another is preferred before them. Such a burden as this is not necessary to bear. Jesus calls us to His rest, and meekness is His method. The meek man cares not at all who is greater than he, for he has long ago decided that the esteem of the world is not worth the effort. He develops toward himself a kindly sense of humor and learns to say, “Oh, so you have been overlooked? They have placed someone else before -you? They have whispered that you are pretty small stuff after all? And now you feel hurt because the world is saying about you the very things you have been saying about yourself? Only yesterday you were telling God that you were nothing, a mere worm of the dust. Where is your consistency? Come on, humble yourself, and cease to care what men think.”

He concludes, “The meek man is not a human mouse afflicted with a sense of his own inferiority. Rather he may be in his moral life as bold as a lion and as strong as Samson; but he has stopped being fooled about himself. He has accepted God’s estimate of his own life. He knows he is as weak and helpless as God has declared him to be, but paradoxically, he knows at the same time that he is in the sight of God of more importance than angels. In himself… nothing; in God, everything. That is his motto. He knows well that the world will never see him as God sees him and he has stopped caring. He rests perfectly content to allow God to place His own values. He will be patient to wait for the day when everything will get its own price tag and real worth will come into its own. Then the righteous shall shine forth in the Kingdom of their Father. He is willing to wait for that day. In the meantime, he will have attained a place of soul rest. As he walks on in meekness, he will be happy to let God defend him. The old struggle to defend himself is over. He has found the peace which meekness brings.”

Gossip = Division

“Without wood, a fire goes out; without gossip, a conflict ceases.” ~Proverbs 26:20

Have you ever had someone corner you to ‘share some concerns’ about another person (i.e. gossip)? Did you knowingly, or unknowingly, listen to the slanderous claims? If this happens, it’s best to stop it before it goes any further. “The beginning of strife is like releasing water; Therefore stop contention before a quarrel starts” Proverbs 17:14.

If the Gossiper is not a Christian, the slanderous speech is to be expected, yet, stopped. If the Gossiper claims to be a Christian, then we (as fellow Christians) should advise them to follow the Biblical route for handling disputes and conflicts (see Matthew 18:15-17).

In scripture, we find those who gossip described as “tale-bearers” and “whisperers”. In his sermon, “Satan Found a Whisperer”, the beloved evangelist, Keith Daniel, tells many true accounts of how gossip and slander have destroyed many families and friendships. Among the abominable things God hates, one who sows discord (stirs up trouble; a whisperer) among Believers, is on the list (see Proverbs 6:19). Again and again, we are instructed throughout scripture to “Speak not evil one of another, brethren…” (see James 4:11, Eph. 4:29-32, etc.).

In fact, Romans 1:29 groups such evil-speakers/whisperers in the same category as the “haters of God”, “untrustworthy”, “unforgiving” and “unmerciful”, just to name a few! Romans 1:32 goes on to say that those who practice such things are deserving of death – yet continue in their wicked ways and approve of others who practice such wicked ways. Such a person is further described in Proverbs 16:27 -28 as being ungodly and perverse: “An ungodly man digs up evil, and it is on his lips like a burning fire. A perverse man sows strife, and a whisperer separates the best of friends.”

The well-known preacher of the 1800s, Charles H. Spurgeon put it like this: “Satan greatly approves at our railing at each other, but God does not.” And, “He that perverts truth shall soon be incapable of knowing the true from the false. If you persist wearing glasses that distort, everything will be distorted to you.” When people begin believing their own distortions about another person, they soon begin believing their own concocted lies which turns them even more against the person. Seeds of discord may not have an immediate effect; but that seed soon gets watered (oftentimes, by more gossip) and grows into a great division and disdain for another soul.

God Sees Us at Home

“True Christianity follows a man home.” ~Pastor Tim Conway

All too often, many Christians let their guard down at home. They feel more at liberty to behave in the manner of least internal resistance, which is, oftentimes, the way of the sinful human nature. Somehow, the scriptural principle of ‘bridling the tongue’ only seems to apply to them when they are at church or around certain individuals. We are all in need of the Savior’s redemptive work; but it seems that some struggle in the area of self-discipline more than others. For some, the proverbial ‘wagging of the tongue’ seems to be a part of their persona. Others may not be tempted in this area, but will be tempted to sin in other areas.

If there is a besetting sin which we have not yet attained the victory over, let us keep striving to keep our hearts and minds pure before God and man (see Acts 24:16). Never say, “That’s just how I am… I have always been a Gossip.” No, no, no! Strive to gain victory over this besetting sin! If a member of a Christian household is known to have a weakness in this area, the other family members should help guide them to victory through accountability and prayer.

Likewise, if a person with a besetting sin is truly seeking forgiveness for such a sin, let us not grow weary of forgiving. “Then Peter came to Him and said, “Lord, how often shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? Up to seven times?” Jesus said to him, “I do not say to you, up to seven times, but up to seventy times seven…” (Matt. 18:21-22). We certainly do not condone the sin – but we should show mercy to a person who may have sinned in a moment of weakness, yet, is repentant.

Without identifying anyone; I will say that there is a certain family in our neighborhood where the Dad often sits outside on his porch, listening to Christian radio. He’s been known, on occasion, to even sing along to the songs of praise, unashamedly, which is wonderful to hear. However, when he is particularly stressed out, he has fits of rage, full of cursing, throwing things, and screaming.

Personally, I will admit that I am not as patient of a person as I should be, and I really have to watch my temperament when I am under stress. Therefore, I don’t mentally judge my neighbor harshly; still, I wonder how sweet and bitter water can come from the same stream? Sure, we all mess up. We all miss the mark, at times. We all need forgiveness and mercy from our Savior. But when such ‘mess ups’ are habitual; well, there is a big problem.

James 3:6-10 states: “And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity. The tongue is so set among our members that it defiles the whole body, and sets on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire by hell. For every kind of beast and bird, of reptile and creature of the sea, is tamed and has been tamed by mankind. But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similitude of God. Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be so.”

This entire section could be summed up by the words of the great American evangelist, D.L. Moody… “A man ought to live so that everybody knows he is a Christian – and most of all, his family ought to know.” Let’s not be double-faced hypocrites; for God knows and sees all. Nothing is hidden from Him, as stated in Proverbs 15:3: “The eyes of the Lord are in every place, keeping watch on the evil and the good.”

Can’t I Defend Myself?

Short answer… to a degree; but, a much lesser degree than most of us think.

It’s okay to speak about what you said or did in an effort to clear up a misunderstanding and/or to diffuse a quarrel. It’s okay to ask or answer questions, to an extent, in regards to a conflict between you and another person (when speaking one-on-one with the person). However, let’s also remember the tone in which we speak. Remember, “A soft answer turns away wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger” (Proverbs 15:1).  

Some may feel justified in defending self, after all, didn’t Jesus defend Himself when the money-changers were at the Temple? Nonetheless, let’s remember that He was defending God and God’s Temple. A valuable lesson I’ve learned (online) from Elder Zac Poonen, of CFC church in India, is this: We defend the Gospel and God, just as Jesus did; but we needn’t strive to defend self. “A dog barks when his master is attacked. I would be a coward if I saw that God’s truth is attacked and yet would remain silent” (quote by John Calvin). So yes, we must defend the truth of the Gospel while remembering to “turn the other cheek” when we, ourselves, are slapped in the face (see Matthew 5:38:45).

Since the days of Cain and Abel, mankind has been at war. Can’t we, as Christians, lay our weapons down, for once? Shouldn’t we, as God’s children, be the facilitators of peace, when possible? Will YOU take a stand?


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Revealing Truth Today Update

I want to humbly ask all of my readers for their prayers. Unfortunately, I am going to have to go offline until further notice. That means that there will not be any new content, although I will keep the blog up if you wish to read previously written posts. I, regrettably, arrived at this decision due to my poor health. If you see this post, I would like to ask for your prayers and thank you for being a loyal reader.

God Bless You,

Maranda M.
Revealing Truth Today


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Thanksgiving in 2020?

“In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.” ~1st Thess. 5:18

Today’s blog post is a little different style than usual. Normally, I study a topic, plan everything out, and present my findings. However, for this post, I am simply going to type what is on my mind, trusting that I speak as God’s servant to bring insight and encouragement.

For most of the world, 2020 has been a very trying year in light of the pandemic, lockdowns, loss, and lifestyle changes. It’s so easy to feel void of ‘thanks’ when everything is in a stressful state of chaos and unrest. But let’s remember the scripture above… that it is God’s will for us to give thanks. Whether life is going smoothly or whether it is going horribly, the Christian must resolve to always follow God’s will.

In the mid-1800s, Charles Spurgeon spoke words that hold true for us today. He said, “There are times when we run and are not weary, and another when we walk and are thankful that we do not faint; ay, and there are periods when we are glad to go on all fours and creep upwards with pain; but still, we prove that ‘the righteous shall hold on his way.’ Under all difficulties the face of the man whom God has justified is steadfastly set towards Jerusalem, nor will he turn aside till his eyes shall see the King in his beauty.” 

While mourning loss and hardship is necessary, we must never lose hope nor waste time crying over what might have been. Instead, let us redeem our time and spend it thanking God for what is. A person may not have the greatest health, but they can be thankful that they have Jesus and hope of healing, whether in this life or the next. Another person may not have a loving family, but they can be thankful that God has given them amazing friendships. Yet another may have lost their job, but God has given them the health to work two temporary, part-time jobs until they can find a steady full-time job.

While it’s not always easy to maintain an ‘attitude of gratitude’, we find the proverbial ‘silver lining’ to our storm clouds since it is God’s will for us to give thanks in every circumstance. In the book of Ecclesiastes, scripture teaches us that yes, there is a time to weep – but there is also a time to laugh and rejoice. Scripture allows us a time to mourn… and mourn deeply; but it also reminds us that there is a time to dance for joy!

Words by James Easter

Even if our circumstances are not good, God can work them out FOR our good. Romans 8:28 states: “We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

My hope and prayer is that we can, as the song says, praise God in this storm. Let’s take this Thanksgiving Day in 2020 to truly honor God. Cooking, eating, and family time are all blessings; but should we have no such traditional Thanksgiving celebration planned, we are still very much able to praise the Lord. We can praise him with our heart, soul, mind, body, and what strength we have left in us. And yes, I am ‘preaching’ to myself… but let’s strive to exude joy and gratefulness to our precious Lord on this Thanksgiving 2020 and every day we are gifted with life.

P.S. Please enjoy the songs below as you worship Jesus today!



Testimony: A Dream of New Life

“And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out of my Spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams…” ~Acts 2:17

When I was about 33 years of age, I had a dream one night that greatly impacted me. Before I share the dream, allow me to give a short preface.

This dream includes a man named Keith Daniel. He is a preacher from South Africa and one of the few remaining who handle God’s Word properly. He is very reverent and one of the holiest men of God that I have ever listened to. He preaches with such an anointing that has been truly life-changing for me. My walk with the Lord has been strengthened by this man of God’s humble yet powerful sermons (I’ve listened to online). Having said that, let’s continue with my dream… 

In my dream, my husband and I were inside of a church building which we were visiting. Keith Daniel was to be speaking on this particular day which was why we were visiting the church. Before church, he was in an open backroom of the church. I just had to let him know what an impact his ministry had on my life. I went back to say hello and to thank him. In his usual Christ-like manner, he was very humble and directed the glory to God.

As I was walking away and almost out of earshot, he called for me to return. “Ma’am! Ma’am!” he said, regaining my attention. I turned around and walked back over to him. He looked directly and intently at me when he assuredly said: “God is going to open up your waters. You will have a child of your own.” In shock, I couldn’t speak; so, I acknowledged what he said by politely nodding; then, took a moment to take in what was spoken before I turned to walk away.

It was such a vivid dream and it seemed so real – as if it actually happened. I woke up with an excitement within me, but didn’t want to tell anyone in case nothing became of the dream. I certainly didn’t want to disappoint anyone if it didn’t come to pass – but somehow, I just had an assurance that this dream was not ‘just another dream’. Like Mary did surrounding the birth of Christ, I too kept these things to myself and pondered them in my heart (see Luke 2:19).

But, Was it ‘Just Another Dream’?

As the years passed, the dream felt just as real and fresh to me as when I first dreamt it. I always believed God gave me the dream, using Keith Daniel to speak these words, since I trust him to speak truthfully. But now, the dream was about four years old and I was getting to an advanced age, maternally speaking. I began to somewhat doubt the dream’s validity.

When Abraham and Sarah were told by God that they would have a miracle child, it didn’t happen instantly. They had to wait for the fulfilment of their promise. But me? I didn’t view my dream as an absolute promise – I just viewed it as a hope of what might be. I never fully closed the door on my dream coming true, but at age 37 (almost 38) I knew time was not on my side. The proverbial ‘door’ began to get very near closing, and I knew it.

Because of my chronic health problems, always being told I would be a ‘high risk’ pregnancy, our financial situation, and my unspoken fears, my husband and I tried to be at peace with remaining childless. But deep down, I don’t think either one of us were truly at peace. We grappled with this for years.

Since my health seemed to go from bad to worse, I almost gave up on ever being able to enjoy life again; let alone, be a Mother. In my mind, I would just quietly survive for a few more years and drift away without a legacy. I didn’t feel I had much of a purpose and it felt like the best days of my life were behind me. I prayed for years and years that God would show me my purpose – but I never really felt like anything was revealed to me which I could ‘sink my teeth into’ as being ‘it’.

One day, my husband and I were in the car when he asked me a question, out of the blue. He said, “I’ve always wondered if it’s me – you know, if I’m the reason why we can’t have kids? Maybe something is wrong with me?” I quieted his fears and replied, “No, I really don’t think it’s you. It’s probably me since I have so many health issues.” I’m not sure why he brought that up on this particular day – but it got me thinking. Knowing time was not on our side as we were aging, I decided to sincerely pray something I’d, sadly, never had the courage to pray before. I prayed for God’s Will concerning pregnancy and I put it into His hands.

Less than a month after praying for God’s Will, we found out that we were expecting! Our first pregnancy EVER in nearly 18 years of marriage! After we found out we were having a girl, we already had her name picked out. It was a name I chose almost 20 years ago… Clarissa Faith. Her name means, ‘a bright and shining faith’. Incidentally, Keith Daniel has a darling Granddaughter named ‘Clarissa’ also.

Interpreting the Dream

As I sit here and type, our little Clarissa Faith is one year old. What a tremendous blessing she is! I was reminded of the dream I had when I was only 33 years old; four years before I became pregnant. I never knew what was meant by the phrase in my dream, that “God is opening up your waters”… until now.

That is what I want to hone in on; the vast foreknowledge of God and how Clarissa was made for such a time as this. All of the puzzle pieces and questions I’ve had, now fit perfectly and everything is in alignment – just as God had predestined it to be.

Allow me to expound…

I was listening to an online sermon when I heard John 3:5. This scripture speaks of being born of the water and of the Spirit. When the Pastor said “water”, the words in my dream immediately came back to me… “God is opening up your waters.” I did some scriptural research on this word and was led to Genesis – where it all began for mankind.

I was paying extra close attention to the word “waters” in an effort to extrapolate some interpretation for my dream. We find that out of the waters, the earth and life was made. Genesis 1:2 says that the earth was formless and void; that darkness was over the face of the deep. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters.

One Bible commentary rightly stated that creation was “the result of the divine agency acting on the mass of elements”, which (in Genesis) is called “waters”. There was immense fluid and a collection of materials which God had to bring into order to create earth. Everything had to be put in position before mankind could live on earth. It all had to be arranged and adapted by the knowledge which God, alone, possesses. The stars had to be placed in the sky, the trees had to be placed on the ground, and so many details had to be tended to first. One of the most important details was… love.

You see, when the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters – it was much like a bird who flutters lovingly over her nest. One commentary says that it was a gentle, cherishing love which “tenderly and gradually, with fostering care, called for the latent possibilities of a [budding] world.”

Another commentary agrees; that it was this same Spirit which “moved (or brooded) upon the face of the waters to impregnate them.” This moving of the Spirit of God was done when darkness was over the face of the deep. In darkness, it can be easy to lose hope… but we also find a baby is formed in the darkness of its Mother’s womb. Alas, hope springs up out of the darkness!

The Dream Fully Revealed

After careful study, I had my answer! After all of these years, I finally can grasp what the phrase “God is opening up your waters” truly means. I think it had to be a bit of a journey to arrive at this revelation to prove to me that my dream was far too complex for my finite brain to have concocted. It confirmed to me that God had orchestrated the dream and that he had also orchestrated Clarissa’s life, in his perfect timing. 

As the song so aptly states: “From Your act of tender mercy, once again I found my way. Just when I thought my world was ending, You showed me a new beginning.” Clarissa was the new beginning for me. She came from heaven down to earth. Raising her in the ways of the Lord is my purpose and calling.

In God’s creation, he brought life out of the waters. Likewise, a baby is formed in a sac of fluid. The surest sign that the baby will be born soon is when this sac breaks. This is known as the Mother’s ‘waters breaking’.  

Before creation, we also see that the earth was without form; it was void and dark. In the same way, the womb is void and empty before the Spirit of God lovingly prepares it, broods over it, and tenderly places life inside.

In the earliest stages of pregnancy, the baby begins as life cells which do not resemble a human being; in essence, without form – much like the earth was in the beginning. The baby is created in the darkness of the Mother’s womb, just as God created the earth, as we know it, out of a dark, formless void. Psalm 139:15 says, “My substance was not hid from Thee, when I was made in secret, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.”

Pregnancy is truly divine. I was amazed at how the brain, kidneys, heart, bones, and body of our baby formed inside of me to create a living, breathing, thriving human being! I certainly don’t know how to create the electrical pathways for a heart to beat; I have no possible way to knit together the complex bodily systems and vital organs to all work in unison. God is, indeed, the only One who is wise enough to bring such a miracle forth.

God’s Perfect Timing

The creation of the earth and the creation of a baby have so many divine parallels. In keeping with this thought, I wondered if the timing of my dream held any significance. And yes, it did!

You see, I dreamed of my ‘waters’ being opened in preparation for a child of my own when I was 33. The dream was not fulfilled until I became pregnant at age 37 – four years later. I looked in the Bible to see what God created on the fourth day of creation.

It was on this fourth day that God created the sun, moon, and stars (sources of light). Genesis 1:17-18 states: “God set these lights in the expanse of the sky to shine upon the earth, to preside over the day and the night, and to separate the light from the darkness. And God saw that it was good.” When I decided upon the name of Clarissa Faith (almost 20 years ago), I had no idea that her first name means, “bright and shining”. Just like the stars, moon, and sun shine brightly – I believe Clarissa was predestined to be a light for God in this world of sin and darkness. That is my prayer for her. I know she has brought me light and has made me want to strive to know God even more.

Another parallel with scripture I found was this: You see, I always prayed to be more like Jesus. That is not an easy prayer to pray since Jesus was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. But I also knew that I’d rather have God’s Will in my life than to indulge in sin. It was at the age of 33 when Christ was crucified. Likewise, it was at this age that I had my dream and when God had to begin the work of crucifying my Will so that His could be accomplished.

God – the Rescuer!

I had many ups and downs in my pregnancy and had to fight so much demonic opposition in my first trimester. I was told by a doctor at 7 weeks pregnant, when I heard my baby’s heartbeat for the first time, that I should consider abortion. As the doctor proceeded to write down the phone number to that evil clinic, she explained that due to my chronic health conditions, there was a high liklihood that the baby could die and that I could die during childbirth. It is quite alarming to have a medical professional look into your eyes and tell you that you could die. Also, I felt immense guilt that my health problems had the potential to harm my unborn baby, even though it was not my fault. After I received this shocking news, I fell into a deep depression.

In the following days after that harrowing doctor’s appointment, I cried countless tears. As I was alone while my husband was at work, I sat in the bedroom floor and sobbed for hours as I prayed. I looked out the window at the sky on that gray, Fall afternoon and felt as if God were a million miles away. I prayed into the vast, gloomy sky for God to help me somehow. In all my life, I had never been this despondent. Mentally, it felt like I was free-falling into the open mouth of hell itself. Such torment in my mind, body, and spirit. My whole being was shattered.

But then, God…

After days upon days of deep despondency, God rescued me. Somehow, amidst my deepest grief, I had a shimmer of hope and courage rise up within. I dried my tears, took a deep breath, and prayed, “God, I can’t do this. I don’t have the strength to endure what is ahead of me.” I paused as my faith arose, “But God… you do. Will you give me the strength I don’t have?”

Although frightened beyond words, it was my deep desire for God’s Will, my great love for my forming child, and ultimately, God’s supernatural strength that won! Just as Jesus died for us, I decided I was willing to die for my baby, if it came to that. John 15:13 says, “Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.” It’s not that I am so noble – but it was God’s love in and through me that sustained me.

Even though pregnancy was very hard on me physically, by His grace, I had no complications during my pregnancy. God gave me the supernatural strength to deliver our child with no pain medications. Yes, it was still the most physically painful event of my life; but to think… a doctor told me I might die, and there I was, birthing our healthy baby quickly and naturally. When we trust God, all things work together for our good.  When God created my baby, it was truly a dream come true!

I love my daughter beyond words and tell God all the time, “You knew exactly what you were doing.” I marvel at his timing! I thought I was likely too old, maternally-speaking, to conceive. But God’s timing is perfect. God knows and sees all. He can strengthen us and uphold us when we trust. Our peace of mind is only as healthy as our level of trust in God.

I don’t know what your journey looks like. Perhaps, you’ve been devastated by miscarriage. Perhaps, you cannot conceive. Perhaps, you are not married and will have no children. But one thing I know – we are all on our own path; and it’s a path that can make us or break us. The ‘path’ is called life. It can get really hard, yes. It can get really depressing, yes. But God is the Redeemer. Whether here or in Heaven, God will set all things right. But when God gave you life in your Mother’s womb, he had a plan. Your scars are part of your testimony.

Just as God made a lush, beautiful earth out of a formless, void – likewise, he can make a beautiful testimony out of your life. He gave you life… give yours for his glory.



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